I guess this is one of those days when I just hate everything. I go and find refuge in my playlists, find some company with some of those overplayed songs, feel good about nothing and just waste my whole day. Of course, then “self- worth” ghost that always keeps hovering around me squeaks in her pathetic little voice – “You waste your day anyway be it your bad mood day or a good mood day, so don’t blame it on the day, it’s you pathetic person! It’s you!”
Wow. Was I not upset enough?
I don’t even want to bitch about this ghost. It’s tiring. She doesn’t deserve my attention, let alone a whole blog post.
However, the truth is she already has too much of my attention. Yeah. And I don’t think I can spare anymore. I am already hanging on a thin thread. I don’t need more tension and the stress.
Anyway, it’s a bad day. I have to talk about something even more not-happy!
And so here it goes-
It suddenly strikes me now that all I have ever done in my life is to get manipulated. Actually, my whole life is a result of manipulation. And I am not just a victim. I have manipulated others as well.
It’s like a tradition; we get manipulated. We manipulate others. If we are not good at it then we spend an enormous amount of money to learn to manipulate someone. We get manipulated even if we are aware of the very fact. We get manipulated even when the thought doesn’t even remotely cross our minds. We manipulate others in quite similar ways. God, it’s a vicious cycle!
World needs to stop for a moment.
And I need to remember when was the last time that I had an original idea which was free of other people opinions.
Original idea? What is originality anyway?
You know manipulation isn’t as bad as it sounds. We have learnt to live with it. The advertisements, the newspaper, the parents, the friends, the teachers. They are not bad? Come on parents? Sometimes, it all works out for the best. Maybe even the bestest thing in your life can be a result of a hard core brainwash. But at the same time, doesn’t it all begin to feel so pointless? Why do we need someone to wash our brains? Can’t we think on our own?
We need some serious answers. We don’t need opinions.
Maybe the truth, the real answers are too harsh to bear and hence we just leave ourselves in the hands of others. And all we get in our lives are opinions.
Yeah, this is me consoling myself.
So, am I trying to say that we don’t need answers?
I want myself to think that. Yes.
Oh! Boy! I am back to square one. It’s true isn’t it? Ignorance is bliss.
One thought on “About manipulating and getting manipulated”
Originality is your weapon. You got the power to wield it like the way you want to. Its tough to imagine out of the box, but you are a rare find who can do that effortlessly. So kick that ghost, hug your fluffy n leak out some more turquoise ink 😉
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