Warning; Fangirl  Alert. Kindly proceed ahead only if you really want to.

What is it with Fawad Khan?

What is it with that beautiful, beautiful man!

I will tell you…I will tell you what exactly it is with Fawad Khan. But before that please allow me to drag you into the dark vicious pit of my fandom – Scary it might seem (And it honestly is) but it will help you understand a lot about my mental state or most of the other fangirl’s/fanboy’s.

Okay, so here begins the story. There is a positive side to not knowing what to do. And that is – you would do anything to find out what you want to do. It might seem that I am talking about dreams and inspiration and other similar stuff and partly I am but this has got more to do with something deeper and darker-Fandom.

Have you ever been through those horrible hours when you are sitting there at your bed or couch and you don’t want to sleep, you don’t want to watch any movie or read or study or cook or become an astronaut or be wonder woman or save the world in any possible minuscule way? There’s no escape from such kind of periodic irrelevance crisis. I was going through something similar and with deep reluctance I made myself sit in front of the television and surf through the channels. I was getting nothing out of it. If anything, my boredom was only getting intensified. But well, if you have a lot of time in your hands suddenly you forget all those things, all those productive and creative things, you had once imagined yourself doing and got excited about it while you were really busy doing something important.

So, it all began with those sad lazy ungodly hours at noon. I had nothing to do. I was flipping through the channels on the idiot box with my legs dangling across the arms of the couch and with my spine making an uncanny curvature pressed against the cushions. As I continued to press the buttons at a considerable high frequency, my eyes desperately searched for something enchanting, something, anything pleasant that could drive the boredom away…

And that’s when it happened. Sometimes at most unexpected times your wishes are granted. I wish at that time I had wished for something less stupid like- 100 Crore rupees? A live and real prince charming whom I could talk to and touch? Some brain? More IQ? But noooooo! I just wanted something “pleasant”, something anti-boredom and there he was. The frequency of my fingers immediately ‘impulsed’ down to zero. My legs jerked to the floor in surprise (where my jaws were already lying). And there he was. When? What? What was I watching? More importantly whom was I watching! Who was this perfect creation of god?

Apparently there was (there is) this new channel I hadn’t ever tuned to before and it was called Zindagi. When did this channel come to existence? I have no idea. But I had no time to contemplate about that. I had no reason to contemplate about anything because right before my eyes, stood a beautiful beautiful face and I couldn’t take my eyes off of it.

It wasn’t just the beauty or that perfectly handsome face (Okay, mostly it was) but a little bit credit goes to my curiosity as well. The serial that I was having my first glance at was Zindagi Gulzar hai.

But a handsome face is not good enough for me to get glued to any serial. (There I said it! But the other person in my head is laughing hysterically saying – Oh! Really?)A decent storyline is also a must. (The other person; Who are you kidding dear?) I was not going to watch all the episodes of this serial in a single night.(To the other person – It is true and you know it!). In fact I wasn’t going to do anything about this new celebrity crush of mine at all.But something made me do something about this…

And that something would be, again, curiosity.

What made me curious? An approval from an unexpected fangirl.

I am not the only one whose life has been turned upside down by a serial with a weird name. There are thousands, lakhs of girls like me and many of them DON’T watch serials on a regular basis. And I realized this when this fangirl ( who also happened to be my neighbor) confessed to me that she was watching this serial and she was in love with the lead actor and she was finding the story pretty good as well. This surprised me because she has a very busy life and she is really not much into TV soaps at all and even then there she was with a staggering confession that just made me do what I was about to do.

Nothing could stop me now. I wasn’t the only victim so screw it!

And nothing stopped me. I watched the entire series in a single night. After I had finished watching it, I was experiencing an alien feeling of pure unadulterated admiration and that is when my fandom shot to next level.

Next thing I knew was – I was watching more of Fawad Khan’s serials. I was reading about him. I was watching his interviews. I was drowning and sinking deeper & deeper.

Just to catch few more glimpses of Fawad khan I was ready to watch a Sonam Kapoor’s movie in theater too! (And I did. Fandom and the things that fandom could make you do. DO NOT EVER UNDERESTIMATE THEM.)

So, I guess we can now come back to the original question – What it is with Fawad Khan?

Well…

The fact is he is very handsome.

The fact is his voice is really seductive.

The fact is the way he speaks Urdu is agonizingly beautiful.

The fact is he is an amazing actor.

The fact is he has a beautiful smile.

The fact is it is impossible not to adore him.

The crazy thing about fandom is that nobody understands it unless she/he herself/himself is a fan. So, I am not going to share any photos. I am not going to share any videos. I am not going to suggest you to watch any serials. (Though you could totally watch some scenes of Zindagi Gulzar Hai on YouTube. You should) < Maybe I just did.

But you are not obligated to do what I am suggesting you to do. However, the sad part is unless you do it, you would never have the answer for- What is it with Fawad khan?

Go home random non-fan, go home. This ain’t no place for you. This ain’t no place.

Author’s note;

Sometimes you have to let your fandom out. It’s an essential survival technique.