Poetry, random

My heart’s a dumb brute

Author’s brief observation: I know that lately, I have been writing too many poems, but I can’t help it. I have nothing to say but words pour out anyway. I think sometimes I care so much, so much that ironically I begin to care less. This sentence doesn’t make sense but believe me it happens.

I do not want to say anything, really, if you have time then you can read the poem below but if you are busy then don’t read it. Doesn’t matter anyway.

Life happened,
Maybe I happened to myself,
Or maybe, quite likely,
Nothing happened at all…
If only I could happily ignore and go
If not that at least tell me how to cheerfully come home,
But nothing’s there,
In here,
In the way back, in the moments I admired but never loved,
I wonder, wonder what stone is inside me; Is it below or is it above?
I don’t think my tears have any meaning any more,
Though yes, sadness causes an unusually gratifying kind of low,
And happiness appears too worthless and too high,
What a pity state! I complain to the sky!
What must I feel? I am not even sure if I am even numb,
What else do I do? I settle for being dumb,
Has it always been this difficult to make even a little sense?
Or is it that all my wits are gone and my foolishness is immense?
I am tired of playing with ironies; my brain speaks in two different languages,
One I don’t understand and the one I do simply ravages,
I listen to them anyway, God! I wish I couldn’t!
I can do anything for some silence; there exists nothing that I wouldn’t
Maybe there does,
And hence remains the buzz,
That evergreen noise
That “sweet melodious” voice

Oh wait.

I have been rambling.
Weirdly I have again been scrambling,
Fuck, don’t bother. You can be rude…
I wouldn’t mind I know my heart’s a dumb brute.

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1 thought on “My heart’s a dumb brute”

  1. Though yes, sadness causes an unusually gratifying kind of low,
    And happiness appears too worthless and too high,
    What a pity state! I complain to the sky!
    What must I feel? I am not even sure if I am even numb,
    What else do I do? I settle for being dumb

    That’s me right now!!! How do you do it dude? Fuck!!

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